This post is just to point out I put a couple of 'new' pictures on the sidebar.  Lately Steve has been asking me why there are no picture of him up there.  So, I figured I better put a few up.  I never meant to exclude Daddy.  :)

I wish I had more pictures of Steve and Joel, but pickings are slim.  Not because Steve was not holding Joel or playing with him, because Steve did that every single day.  Just because Daddy was the camera guy and the camera guy never gets pictures of himself.  And if Daddy had Joel, Mommy beat a hasty exit to make the supper, or clean the kitchen, or maybe just take a nap.  I feel sad now that it never occurred to me to take more pictures of Steve with Joel.  I sure wish I had.

I tend to leave Steve out of this blog, because I sort of feel like he needs his privacy and I don't want to drag him and his feelings out onto my blog when he might not want them there.  So maybe he is a bit of a "gap" in the story at times.

But let me say this for the record.  He is one heck of a Daddy.  He loved Joel, he held him and talked to him and played with him and worried over him and loved him.  Not a week goes by that he doesn't tell me how much he misses holding Joel's little feet in his hand (he always used to rub them, because Joel liked it) or how Joel's hair smelled (because Joel smelled awesome all the time).

And because of Steve, I was able to stay home with our son and care for him myself.  I was also able to stay home with Caeden after Joel died, and spend time recovering myself and my son.  Steve is a great dad, and a great husband.  We love him very much.  I thank God for my husband.  And the rest of it is private, personal, and confidential.  :)