Holiday

I'm afraid to write about this. I'm afraid that it's not going to happen. I'm afraid that Joel is going to get sick or something else and then it won't happen.

Because Steve, Caeden, Joel and I are "going away" for a holiday. It's the only one I can see us making, at this point. It's not much compared to some holidays, but I am very, very excited about it. I don't think Joel will make to or past the magical age of three when he'd qualify for a Make a Wish, and I don't know if he's still around if he'd be able to enjoy it anymore anyway.

We have booked two nights at a hotel here in the city. Quite a few of our friends with families from our church are going to stay there at the same time, so it's going to be quite a party. It's a family friendly hotel, with a huge, three story play area for kids, besides the pool. We have booked a suite with a two-person jacuzzi and I'm really hoping that Joel will enjoy that part of it.

It will likely be our one and only "trip" with Joel. I hate putting him in the car for any length of time other than 30 minutes. I just don't trust his breathing in that position for too long. I think it is too tiring for him. And taking a plane somewhere doesn't seem much better. It would be an ordeal for all of us.

Not to mention that the thought of a new hospital and strange doctors, in the case he became ill, just about throws me into fits. And all the rest of it, like the worry that his meds might get lost, or that his CPAP will break down, etc, etc, etc.

But this is a trip I can do. We'll throw the O2, the monitor, the CPAP, the meds, the pump and accessories, the formula, the playpen, the stroller, all of it in the car and we are only 30 minutes from home if we forget anything important. And only about 15 mins from emergency, where they know us very well.

And it's enough for us. Caeden will absolutely love it, playing with friends and sleeping in a hotel will be big, big excitement for him. It will be a change of scenery, and if Joel enjoys the jacuz, I intend to live there with him. We can eat in the restaurant, but if Joel is just not up to it, then we can order room service and let him sleep in his playpen. And room attendants will make my bed - :) Whooo hoooo.

I think I am looking forward to this as much as I am to Christmas. As long as Joel stays healthy. Which goes for both Christmas and the trip. It all depends on Joel keeping stable for the next three weeks. But I still can't help feeling excited. I hope I'm not going to be disappointed...